Half way to 30 and I have never been in a real, committed, and serious
relationship. I can't help but think, how sad is that? I often wonder
why I was never the girl guys wanted to commit to. Why was I the girl
that guys either wanted to have sex with or have as a side chick? And
yeah I'm sure I didn't make the situation better. Often times I found
myself thinking "sex ='s love" and enabling the whole "using" process.
But why? And even when I had "relationships", why were they so shitty?
I mean, how did I end up with the crappy relationship and not the
pleasant one? Was I only worth arguing, being cheated on, being lied
to, and being disrespected? I mean, I know I'm not....well I think I
know I'm not, but why can't I experience the respectful, caring,
compassionate man? Most folks would reply "take a look at yourself".
Well I've done that...& I'm very aware of my flaws and have even
tweeked a few, but everyone has flaws....what makes her flaws better
than mine? Maybe I'm too demanding. But I don't feel I need to
settle.....hell I did that already and it didn't get me anywhere.....I
guess somethings will never be answered or known. All I can do is look
forward and stop staring in the rearview mirror...
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I really like this post! Very relateable, all of my past relationships were very similiar. I was cheated on or treated like the girl on the side. Guys didn't respect me at all until now. From my experience to get guys to respect you, you need to respect yourself and to not waste your time on the silly boys who won't treat you like you want and deserve to be treated. Definitely do not settle in relationships either! Every girl deserves more than that and you will find it, it just takes time. Good luck and can't wait to read more! =)
ReplyDeleteLate responding, but thank you very much for your comment and for following me! :) You are very right, respect yourself first and never settle. Thanks again, and I hope you enjoy future posts!
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